Thursday, September 2, 2010

The Chemo Cave

I'm coming out of my chemo cave and back into the world of real life. The chemo cave is where I hang out and watch movies while the chemo moves through my body killing the cancer and continually shrinks the tumor. This time my brother Scott got to hang out with me in my chemo cave. I'm very blessed to have the best brother ever. Not only did he make sure I was eating, he also watched movies with me all weekend and made me laugh at times when I really needed to laugh. Also the poor thing will probably end up getting pneumonia. One of the side effects from having chemo is hot flashes. Our apartment feels like walking into an igloo, in my room alone I have 2 fans that blow on me at night plus the air conditioner runs like every 5 minutes. Let me just say hot flashes are not cool, I've never had more respect for my mom and aunt then I do now after experiencing them! :)

If you have heard the song "Stand" by Rascal Flats this is around the time when I get up from the ground brush my hands off and stand. (I suggest googling the lyrics or listening to the song) I listen to that song everyday after chemo for encouragement to get through the day. Today is the day that I start to feel my energy level increase and I start feeling just overall better.

When I started this blog it was suppose to be a way for me and my mom to update family and friends on my appointments and treatment, but Ive gotten so many messages and cards saying how inspired they are by me or how I'm making cancer not scary. That is my new goal with this, cancer isn't scary, and it doesn't mean an instant death sentence. Even having chemo doesn't scare me, what does scare me are the days after when the chemo is coursing through my body and I don't have any energy to get off the couch or move. But, I also know that if I can just make it through those days 1 day at a time that its one more day that the cancer didn't win and its one more day closer to days like today. So I will continue to get up from the ground, brush my hands off....and stand!

My plan is to head home this weekend and spend time with my family. I continue to be amazed by the number of people praying for me. Thank you all so much....I know those prayers are working!

Peace, Love and Hope,
Kaitlyn

4 comments:

Lora said...

OMG, You are the most amazing person I know. I am just speachless. Stand strong but know that you will never stand alone.

Kay Horn said...

I remember 'way back in middle school how feisty you were then and I see it has carried over to this fight that you're in to overcome this nasty disease. Keep fighting girl and know that prayers are going up in your behalf.
Love you tons! Mrs. Horn

Janie Herd-Harrold said...

Kaitlyn, I am so happy for you and I KNOW YOU WILL BE CANCER FREE SOON!! God does answer prayers and I send them up everyday for you. You continue to amaze me!! You are a very strong young lady! You encourage me to get up every morning and not feel sorry for my self as my illness is not life threatning (sp) I have Epilepsy and I use to feel bad that I had to stay home all the time and am unable to drive.. GIRL YOU TOOK THAT RIGHT AWAY FROM ME!! YOUR STRENGH HAS ALSO MADE ME STRONGER THANK YOU. LOVE AND PRAYERS

Anonymous said...

You are a very amazing and blessed woman. You should give yourself a huge hug. I love that song by Rascal Flatts as well. And as for the Hot flashes. Amen. They are such a bother. When i have mine i feel like my insides are going to combust. Not fun! Keep up the great work you are doing. I will continue to pray for you. You have a wonderful relationship with Scot and that will only continue to grow stronger.

Luv ya Kaitlyn :-) Alison Pfeiffer