Hair today gone tomorrow!!

Sorry for the delay in posting a blog its been a busy week for me with my new work schedule. So as the title says and as you can see in the pictures that I posted last weekend, I came home to cut the hair. It started falling out(or as I started referring to it has releasing) Wednesday and by Thursday morning of treatment I was pulling chunks of it out in the shower. Its funny to me the girl who has never really cared what my hair looked like, I mean I have had 7 perms and I believe one of them was also a mullet perm. How emotional it was to pull it out and watch it gather in the drain of the shower. So with that happening I called my mom to call my hairdresser Lora, who has been cutting and styling my hair from my first haircut to schedule an appointment with her to cut it this time. When we got there she washed it and started cutting, the goal being to cut it short and see how that looked. Well while she was cutting it I could tell that even wearing it short it was still going to be releasing and I just didn't want to deal with that so I made the decision then to just have Lora shave it off. The chemo might have started the process of my hair releasing, but I finished it with deciding when and how it was going to go. So some tears and hugs later I had my bald head.

This past week as been a little rough on me, I have never been really sick before. Yes I have had the occasional cold, but nothing that I haven't been able to push through. So with that being said one of the side effects of the chemo is fatigue, and I thought before we started treatment "Oh fatigue so I'll feel like I need a nap and it will pass no big deal". Boy was I wrong, my whole body feels heavier and like I'm dragging just to get through a day. I'm not trying to complain because it could be sooo much worse I just want to help people have a better idea of what its like to have this disease and what is actually happening to my body. So I've made it through another week and another treatment down. Only 2 more of the A/C treatments left and that's good. I'm taking it treatment by treatment.

My final thought is there is a lot of things that I can't control right now, but the one thing that I can control is my attitude in how I deal with everything. So I choose to have a positive outlook on everything and stay as positive as I can. Yes I have my days where I cry, yell, or am just angry and I allow myself to feel that way and then I get right back in the game and start fighting again with my humor.

So three days of work this week and then round 3 of treatment, I'm sure the nurses, as all of you, are anxiously waiting to see what type of orange I wear Thursday! :) I'll make sure mom takes lots of pictures as well.

Peace, Love and Hope
Kaitlyn