First I want to thank everyone for their support and love I'm completely overwhelmed and humbled by it all. I also want you to know that I have read every one of your comments and messages. Which is why i created this blog so that you can follow my progress and leave your comments to me on here. My mom or I will be posting on here, depending on how I'm feeling.
Since my mom has given the rundown on what has happened since I was diagnosed, and this blog is titled my thoughts I'm going to talk about my thoughts on this past week. Since being told Tuesday that I have cancer I have been on an emotional roller coaster. My dad explained it the best the other day saying that when you are first told you have cancer its like dumping a 100 piece puzzle on the table so the pieces to the puzzle are all laying out and you can't see what the picture is. Little by little you are able to put the puzzle together and better able to see what the picture is. That's basically what has happened this week, I feel like finally we are putting pieces of the puzzle together and coming up with our course of action or battle plan and I can start to see what the bigger picture is looking like.
We are still waiting on some more tests to come back before that picture will be in place but as of right now I'm going to start chemo next week and I will be doing that before we do the surgery in the hopes that we can shrink the tumor and also kill any other cells that might be to small to be seen right now. So Friday I was rather upset because it was becoming all to real for me that in fact I'm going to lose my hair, and that my life is about to be turned upside down. So I prayed about it and did some thinking and I came to the conclusion that this could be a good thing, for example I'm going to be saving money on hair care products, I won't have to shave anymore, and with it starting to get warmer I think not having any hair will turn out to be a very good thing.
So, I know a lot of you have told me that if I ever need anything to let you know so here is the first thing that I need. I know that I'm going to have to do chemo for 3hours when i go, and I'm a huge music person so I would like you to leave me 1 song that is your favorite or one that you listen to when you want to feel good. So that I can add it to my Ipod. I'm going to make a chemo play list so that I can listen to all these songs while I'm at chemo.
Anyone who knows me, knows that I don't like to lose. I see this as just another challenge and I know that I'm going to come out of this a stronger person. I fully believe that things happen for a reason and if I can be an inspiration to someone else or help someone else battling this disease or just to inform people of this disease than that's what I'm going to do.
So I just ask that you continue to pray for not only me but my family as well. My parents and brother have been very supportive and there for me. I know that I'm going to have to rely heavily on them in the coming months as well. So I just ask that you keep them in your prayers too as they are having to deal with this as well.
Love, Peace and Hope
Kaitlyn
I am starting this blog to give my phone and mind a break :) Though I truly appreciate all the love and support I have received over the past couple of weeks, I am feeling a little overwhelmed with it also. So I wanted to have a place where I could update everyone on whats going on and you would have a place to write me comments of love and encouragment.
26 comments:
GREAT idea with the ipod song request. Your #1 song on the ipod should be Rocky TOP!! You may not even need another song...just keep this song on repeat for 3 hours :) love you, Toshi!
Kaitlyn, we want you to play "I Hope You Dance" When you are doing chemo and play this song, we want you to grab the IV pole and get up and DANCE. We know you will have many days ahead of you to dance when this is all over.
Love
Grams and Gramps
Maxwell - This Woman's Work. I hope you like it!
Hey Katie...... I'm so sorry to hear about all of this, but with all your spunkiness, you already have it beat. This thing doesn't stand a chance going up against you. :) My 2 songs for you are "Bubbletoes" by Jack Johnson and "Two Step" by Dave Matthews Band. And throw in a little "Superfreak" by Rick James. That will make your day. Hahaha. - Kari
here is one you shared w/ me years ago. Tubthumping by Chumbawumba
"Stand" by Rascal Flatts...
Compete like you did when you played for me and this new "opponent" won't stand a chance.
Coach Stesiak
Hey Baby....great songs on here from your buddies...I think you need a little "Small Town" by our buddy John! Remind you where you came from:) Also any thing by Jimmy Buffet!!
Ok number one feel good song for me right now is "Toes" by Zac Brown band - just makes me happy. And then on a TOTALLY different note, Nicole C. Mullens "Touch"...amazing song about the woman who trusted in the power of Christ that she pressed through the crowd just to touch His clothes and was healed...absolutely amazing song!
Love you cuz!!!!
I vote for a variety of popular songs from the 80's and 90's. When you listen to them you can think back of funny stories from childhood and laugh during the 3 hours. It seems laughing makes just about anything a little bit better.
Hey Kate! It was good to see you Friday. I'll be back up the for good later this week, and I'll let you know where to find me. I'm trying to think of a good song for you that hasn't already been mentioned, so I'll get back to you on that.
Anway, I just really wanted to pass on a message from Charity. She seems to be having trouble leaving a comment on here. Oh, and she loves exclamation points almost as much as you do! Lol. Here ya go:
Hey Kate, I don't know if you remember me or not but my name is Charity. We only met once, but it took just that one time for me to know how special of a person you are. I just wanted you to know that I have been down this path before with some of my family members!! It is a hard thing to have to go thru... But just know that not only is your family supporting you, but you also have us, your friends and most important GOD behind you. We are all rooting for you Kate! Keep that beautiful smile going and let your spirit shine thru!! You asked for a song and I would love for you to it to your ipod!! It's called Temporary Home by Carrie Underwood!! God bless you and your family! Love always charity.
Kaitlyn, it was so much fun seeing you and spending time with you Saturday night. Love your attitude, poise and humor. One of my favorite songs on my ipod is Indescribable by Chris Tomlin. God is with you and will give you comfort, strength and love during this chapter of your life. Lean on him (and all of us too)!
Kaitlyn...anything from Lady Gaga will get you pumped up and ready for anything. But you have to listen to it "cranked up".
Jacob highly recommends anything by Aerosmith, as this is what he listened to during his MRI. He also said "Your Love is My Drug" by Kesha or "California Gurls" by Katy Perry.
Good call on the song list idea! My suggestions are
1) Desert Song by Hillsong
2) Your Hands by JJ Heller
and 3) one that is at the back of my mind that I can't remember right now! So...to be continuted. :)
I still have the CD that we all made each other i think our first fall break. i will post from songs from it! just know that we are praying for you hard down here in TN!!
Modest Mouse "Float On". Great song! Also, I like to download comedians onto my mp3 player. Some really good ones are Bill Cosby, Kathy Griffin and Jerry Seinfeld. They're always good for a laugh!
The sun is shining and I am hoping you are also today. Have fun at work. Make them proud. Love ya.
Kaitlyn,
Unfortunately for you I am both a wrestling coach and country music fan so you might get some songs that are "different"
You gotta have the Rocky Theme song...that is a must. Gotta have "You're the best around" from the original Karate Kid. Moments by Emerson Drive. You find out who your friends are by Tracy Lawrence.
There will be more to come...
Kaitlyn, had a great supper with mom, dad, Aunt Angie and Uncle Steve tonight. Had mom laughing and we had some good conversations about Aunt Angies trip to Hawaia[sp]. Hope you had a good day. Love you and good luck tomorrow. We will be praying for you
Hey girl! Well this playlist is gonna be a "mix" for sure... I think you should put "champion" by queen latifah as well as "god in me (remix)" by mary mary featuring ne-yo. Let me know if you can't find the "god in me" and i'll send it to you. still praying for you!
Amazing Grace, I Believe by Blessid Union of Souls and Trust by Sixpence None the Richer.
I hope that you enjoy these songs! :) Many prayers your way!
Good Bless!
Colleen
Sorry that my songs are coming in late, Kaitlyn. What a great idea! These are some of my favorites! Thinking and praying for you and your family!
"I will praise you in this storm" -Casting Crowns
"Safe"- Phil Wickham
Dance in the Dark by Lady Gaga and Show Love by Mary J Blige. Sorry I'm late to the party, but those songs are guaranteed happymakers.
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